Week 37: As Big As Canary Melon

 Last Friday, went for week 37 doctor checkup. Luckily less people also so I got to see the doctor in like 20 minutes. So as usual we checked the ultrasound. Doctor gave us a slight scare during the process when he measured baby's body at week 41! The rest of the body is according to the week. Lol. After that, he said probably because of the position of the baby so he did a few more times of measurement. Finally got the mean and it's actually okay. Baby measured at about 3.3kg and is according to Week 37 size. Phew! Even her head is proportionate to the body now. Another less thing to worry. Though of course my concern of pushing her out grows with that. XD

The week before I took the vagina swab. So report came out and apparently I have fungal infection. It is pretty common though so I had to apply the cream. How to apply? For three days I have to let Yang inject me vaginally with it. D: The first night was tough because my vagina was so tight! Plus the tip of the syringe was not smooth so it was painful. Tried to apply hypnobirthing tactic and it worked a little only. However, I wanted to treat this like a practice of feeling pain vaginally so second night was more gung-ho. I felt less pain and the syringe could enter easier as I was more relaxed. Yang rated the process 7.5/10 whereas last night was 6.5/10. On the last night though, I had some kind of fear towards the process. Perhaps also because my vagina felt raw already so the last round was quite painful again. I couldn't relax and even had a reflex action of squeezing my vagina. So glad that it was over! 

This week I did a more thorough cleaning of baby's room for one day. But on the next day, I started feeling very pain on my pubic bone. It went on for 2 and half days. I couldn't really stand and walk. Even sitting came with it's cost when I had to stand up. The pain doubled when I did that. Turning on bed was a torture too and each time I turn, my pelvic gave off some bone sound. There was just a lot of pressure and my vagina was more swollen than before. To relieve the pain, I sat mostly on the gym ball or lied on my side. Did more Kegel exercise. It slowly got better and now I don't really feel the pain anymore. So I think it really was because of the cleaning I did on that day. Pushed my body too hard. 

On Wednesday, Denny fetched us to Hartamas for dinner and I was a little stressed when he was driving. So on that night, I actually had nightmare and during the next day, baby was more active than usual perhaps due to the adrenaline she felt from both the driving and dream. 

So today (Thursday), Amy gave birth to her little baby girl already! Truly feels like I'm waiting for my turn on the roller coaster. Haha. Now lining up!

This week I did more scrapbooking on my solo trip. Finally got started on it but I don't think I could finish it before baby comes? Hope that I could because I think I wouldn't have enough time to do or also be able to remember the trip well once she is here. It would be like trying to recall a closed chapter in my life.

We kinda decided on baby's name. Perhaps it would be Ho Shih Rin. But the Chinese Pinyin is actually Xi Lin. Couldn't use Shih Pinyin because apparently it's not a very good middle name or something. Well Xi is fine for us as it means hope. Also found out that Amy's newborn has the same Lin Chinese name! So, not sure whether we should change Rin's name or just let it be. It shouldn't matter right because we will mostly call her Rin. We wanted the Rin and the Chinese part we don't really mind actually. Only the Chinese relatives would mind but... Who cares also right?

My feeling at Week 37 is that of anticipation and yet fearful. I am not that prepared mentally I think compared to the week before. Maybe because of the pain I felt during the vaginal injection. I am slowly gaining confidence though. I need to get back to my hypnobirthing ebook. Changing mindset and have no fear. 

Yang is feeling a bit nervous of the thought of her coming so soon. Lol.